No Fear

September 3, 2010

Southern California is dominated by the surfer-skater culture. At least it was when I was living there in the 1990s. Those who identified with that group listened to a certain kind of music and carried themselves a certain way. They also had a very specific style. There were many apparel companies that catered to this demographic, like Billabong and Vans, but there was one in particular that sticks out in my mind. In junior high, lots of kids wore these T-shirts and boardshorts–some were  solid colors, but most had elaborate multicolored designs. Emblazoned on the fabric were two simple words: No Fear.

I didn’t really understand it then, but I do now. You see, the company who makes this sportwear (they are actually called No Fear) specializes in apparel for what they describe as “action sports” or “alternative sports”–skateboarding, surfing, motorcross, etc.  Now, I was never–and will never be–a part of the surfer/skater crowd. It’s a very blond, skinny, tan, SoCal club which would never have me, but I admire the point that the No Fear folks are making. Surfing is very scary. At least, I think it is. You swim way out into the ocean and then you have to have the strength and perfect timing necessary to “catch a wave” and ride your way back. Extreme sports are scary. I think most would agree–hell that’s why they are called extreme sports. It takes a certain personality to excel at, or even attempt these kinds of activities. Regular people play baseball and basketball, extreme people surf and race motorcycles. They put the words on the t-shirt because that’s the attitude they have to have: No Fear. But isn’t that the attitude than anyone who has ever done anything extraordinary has to have?

I have posted here before about the Animal Brain, the involuntary part of your brain that controls certain functions in order to keep you safe. It controls how much sleep you need, how much air you breath, and how hungry or thirsty you are. Now some would say that we have control over what we eat. These would be the folks who say “It’s all a matter of will power.” That’s not necessarily the case. While we have control over what we put into our mouths, we do not have control over when and how often we feel hungry. The animal brain controls that. The animal brain is afraid. It thinks you need more food in order to keep you safe. It thinks you are starving. But it doesn’t end there. Your animal brain can stop you from changing jobs, starting a new business, marrying a certain person, or traveling. It does so for the same reason: to keep you safe. The sad part is that the animal brain is so busy keeping you safe that it can sometimes keep you from living.

I am fascinated by the extreme sports types because they have found a way to control their animal brain. To control the fear–or at least proceed in spite of it. They jump into things without a thought that would seem crazy to most. And if you ask them about it, they treat it like it is something as simple and safe as brushing their teeth. These are the people that ride waves, jump out of airplanes, and race motorcycles over dangerous terrain. They don’t let their animal brain stop them from doing…well…anything. I envy them.

I want to live like that. I want to live without fear. I thought I was living that way, but the realization that I have been stuck in my weight loss and stuck in my career leads me to believe that I am not. Something is wrong. I still fear something and I know that I will always be “stuck” until I find out what it is. Everyone wants to be thin and healthy, get out of debt and have a career that they enjoy, but most people don’t have any of those things. Why? Why do our animal brains think they need to keep us right where we are in order to keep us safe? What are we so afraid would happen if we finally lost that weight or paid off those credit cards? That we wouldn’t be able to use those things as excuses anymore? That our friends and family would be jealous and wouldn’t love us anymore if we were thinner? (This is actually very common–it’s been documented) That people would think that we are “putting on airs” if we built a successful business and bought our dream home?

So I put this question to you: What are you afraid of?


One Meal at a Time

September 1, 2010

It’ not just what you eat, but what you don’t eat that matters. On Monday of this week I ate a candy bar for lunch. Not the best choice. This nutritional vacuum that I called “lunch” totally screwed me up for the rest of the day. Even though I had a fiber-rich breakfast with lots of fruit, I ended up letting an entire day go by without eating a single vegetable. And I really felt like crap.

I’m grateful, though. I am grateful that when I screw up nutritionally, I notice right away. I notice it in how I feel. I’m getting older–it’s not just about maintaining a certain type of figure anymore. It’s about giving my body what it needs to keep my muscles and bones strong, my cholesterol and blood pressure low, and to fuel my workouts. It’s about maintaining a healthy and active lifestyle as I age.

Indulging in sweets isn’t really the problem here. The real problem is that we tend to indulge in sweets or other nutritionally barren foods at the expense of the healthy food. Most people don’t eat the crap in addition to, but rather in lieu of the healthy food.

When I was following The Gabriel Method, I still craved sugar for a time, but after a while, my cravings subsided. When I consistently fed my body well at every meal, it eventually stopped asking for the crap.

So day by day, meal by meal, you just try. You try everyday…and everyday, you get better.


September Shakeology Shakedown!

August 28, 2010

Watch the video for the 411 about my latest fitness challenge!


Wisconsin Retail Therapy and Pretending Perfection

August 26, 2010

I took a trip up to Wisconsin to do a little shopping. I recently quit my permanent “day job” and went back to doing contract legal work. This means I am working at fancy law firm offices in the Loop here in Chicago and even though some are business casual, my business casual wardrobe left a lot to be desired. First of all, up until today, I owned suits and jeans–and very little in between. The suits I have are hanging off of me because the last time I worked in an office, I was 50 pounds heavier.

I rented a car yesterday for a Team Beachbody coaching event out in Naperville, IL and I figured, since I did not have to return the car until 3pm today, I would go to the outlet mall off of I-94 in Wisconsin to see if I could find some deals. And boy did I ever!

The first piece of news is that I can actually fit in to designer clothes! I picked up a few things to fill out my Fall business casual wardrobe, organized my closet to prepare for the new season, rotating the summer clothes to bottom drawers and to the back of the closet and moving the fall stuff up front. Also went grocery shopping at Whole Foods and ran some other errands. All in all a very productive day. I had a great time.

I have been to Wisconsin before and I generally find people there to be very happy and friendly. But today was odd. In every store I entered I was greeted by a member of their staff who said: “Good morning, how are you?” I cheerfully replied: “I’m great, thanks!” Without fail, each one of them asked: “Really?” It was like they all refused to believe that someone was actually in a good mood. They seemed suspicious of me…I entered a total of 5 stores today and every single person responded in the same way.

I don’t get it. Why are people suspicious of others who are happy? Is it envy? Do they wish that they were that happy, too? Maybe it’s all that cheese they eat up there in Wisconsin…dairy can make you very lethargic (“Those people sweat Gouda,” my husband says). It could be the recession. When people are scared and insecure about their financial well-being it makes it very difficult to stop and smell the roses.

I was in a good mood today because I chose to be. I am trying to get in the habit of feeling good regardless of what is happening. Sometimes it’s easy, and sometimes it’s really difficult. I have the same amount of work and financial stress as many people, but the thought that comforts me is that I am heading in the right direction. I am much closer to where I want to be than I was a year ago, or six months ago, or even 3 months ago. I’m getting better. I have a vision of the life I want and everything I do is a means to move myself closer to that vision. Sometimes getting to that state of mind involves a plain old game of Make Believe. Remember doing that when you were a kid?

I want you to try an experiment with me. Don’t announce to the world that you are doing this, just do it. Spend an entire day pretending like your life is perfect. Imagine you have the perfect job, the perfect house or apartment, the perfect body, the perfect car, the perfect business, etc…If all these things were true, what would you do different? How would you feel? Would you sleep better? Walk taller? Be more patient with people? So try “pretending perfection”, and see if it makes a difference.

And if that doesn’t work, think about what your life would be like if you were a Sudanese woman whose main task of the day is trying to avoid being raped and murdered by the Janjaweed–the armed men on horseback who terrorize civilians in Darfur. Suck it up and be grateful that your problems aren’t that bad!


Managing Chaos

August 23, 2010

My thoughts for the day.


Chaos Squared

August 22, 2010

Wow. The past week of my life has been crazy. I finally had the courage to quit my permanent job and rejoin the world of office workers. I had been working from home for 3 years and was feeling very isolated professionally. I was on the El train the other day stopped at Diversey due to a problem with the trakcs in the Loop and began wondering why I stayed at that job for so long. I had been unemployed for months after law school and had about $30 in my checking account at the time and felt so lucky to have that job. But I guess I stayed too long because I was hiding. I was hiding from the failure of a detoured legal career and from the world’s judgment of my increasingly fat body. It’s easy to hide when you work from home. But now, halfway through my weight loss journey I have decided that I don’t want to hide anymore. I want to be out in the world again. So, on August 13, 2010, I rejoined the land of the living. I quit my permanent, yet unfulfilling “safe” job and took a temporary contract position with a law firm downtown. It is a short term thing (just over a week) but the hours are insanely long! I am waiting today to hear back on whether the job will continue into this week. However, I was able to make a lot of money in a short amount of time. In 8 days I have made the equivalent of a month’s salary at my old job.

But it has been tough. It’s been chaos–SQUARED. I confess that while I kept up my regular workouts for the last week, I also plied my body with sugar and caffeine in order to stay awake and alert enough to work these long hours. I also indulged in whatever fatty, salty free food that was available. Thankfully I did not have to work this weekend so I was able to get somewhat back into my normal routine. I had punished my body to the point where I felt so crummy that I have learned my lesson. As this type of work will be more of the norm in the months to come, I am formulating a plan as to how I will manage the situation nutritionally next time. For now, though I am trying to enjoy the time I am spending with other lawyers, despite the hours, and appreciate the value added to my resume.

My Facebook 10 Day Fitness Challenge is now over and I have selected a winner. She was notified and has chosen her prize. Next on my list of things to do is to start planning my next challenge and change up my own workout routine. Beginning this week, I will be adding a third HIIT workout and doing more weight lifting/sculpting workouts. It’s high time I started building some more muscle! It will be Fall soon and for those of you that have been enjoying primarily outdoor workouts, it will soon be time  to adjust your plans for indoor fitness activities (P90X perhaps?).

Either way, it’s time to shake things up a bit. So what’s YOUR plan? How are you going to shake things up this Fall? New job? New wardrobe? New workout?


When the Going Gets Tough…

August 17, 2010

…the tough get going. And this week has definitely been tough! Last Friday, I quit my permanent job and went back to the flexible and more lucrative world of freelance work. The problem is that unpredictability often accompanies flexibility. We are on Day 9 of my 10-Day Facebook Fitness Challenge and I have worked 4 straight days so far—a total of 54 hours! I have eaten way too many refined carbs and drank way too much coffee.  My goal today is to get in a workout and my fruits and veggies no matter what. Even if the workout is only 15 minutes.

Here is the lesson: When you get really busy and really stressed, do not use that as an excuse to let all the positive changes you have made go to hell on a speedboat. Find a way.

Refocus. Refuel.  Get your second wind and get moving.


The Doctor is In

August 6, 2010

Roman philosopher, Marcus Tullius Cicero once said: “In nothing do men more nearly approach the gods than in giving health to men.” So true.

Doctors are important. They help us and they heal us. But, so often they can harm us in ways that we do not realize. You’ve seen all the drug commercials. Bill Maher once famously joked that doctors are becoming much more similar to drug dealers and that the commercials might as well say “Ask your doctor if Jack Daniels is right for you.”

I have had several doctors over the years. I have gone through about 7 dermatologists alone. I asked every single one of them if the foods I was eating could possibly be effecting my acne. Each of them said no and then promptly wrote me a prescription. I have since learned that what you eat has everything to do with every aspect of your health. The problem is not the doctors, it’s the system. When you are a doctor, you have to cut a deal with the insurance companies and the pharmaceutical companies in order to stay in business. Doctors are trained to do two things: perform surgeries and dispense medicines. That’s all well and good, but it seems that doctors no longer engage in preventative care. Likely because it costs so much to go to medical school and run a practice that you have to be a “specialist” in order to make a living. This, along with the we-have-a-drug-so-we-need-a-new-disease culture that Big Pharma has created, is the  reason the “family physician” is disappearing. But there is good news. Physicians and healthcare advocates are recognizing this problem. This awareness has manifested something called Integrative Medicine.

The medical community is coming to the conclusion that in order to treat the disease, you have to treat the whole person. You can’t just perform a surgery or give them a drug and send them on their way. They will be right back in your office a few months or years later. The concept of using food as medicine, of treating circulatory problems with yoga,  “prescribing” Pilates for back pain (which totally works by the way!), and giving Vitamin D to s person who has a cold–this is integrative medicine.  The idea is to find the cause instead of just treating the symptom. Chronic back pain is not a disease, it is a symptom of something else. Absent any other serious medical problem (like kidney problems) it usually means that your other core muscles are weak and your back is overcompensating, hence the pain. To relieve the pain you need to make your other core muscles stronger, hence the Pilates. Get it?

My husband and I found a wonderful doctor who practices this type of medicine here in Chicago and since we started seeing him we have both felt much better. We are rarely sick, much more energetic, and I have lost weight.

Your Mission: find a physician that practices integrative medicine. You can start here.


4 Ways to Prevent Dieting Boredom

August 5, 2010

I know what you are thinking. “Therese, I am dieting–it’s always boring.” But it doesn’t have to be. One thing that often leads me to fall off the wagon other than my psychological issues is that I get bored with the food. When you are no longer eating certain foods that used to be staples in your diet, you have to learn to explore more options with the foods that you are now eating. It doesn’t matter what type of nutrition program you are on–low carb, low fat, vegetarian–here are 4 tips that will help cure the boredom.

1. New Recipes

Every style of healthy eating usually has several cook books that go along with it. Buy them! Experiment. Figure out how to make your favorite things in a new and healthy way.

2. New produce

Apples and bananas are not the only fruit available, just as broccoli is not the only vegetable. There are six “families” of lettuce but within those families there are dozens of amounts of species of lettuce–just lettuce alone! Every week try a new type of fruit or vegetable. You never know…you may end up loving it!

3. It’s OK to Eat Out

Just because you are eating healthy, doesn’t mean you can never eat out. I ate out a lot when I lived in New York City (no one’s apartment has a big enough kitchen to cook anything!). I was the fittest and healthiest then than I have ever been. These days practically every restaurant–except fast food places maybe–has something on the menu that’s healthy. Tailor the meal to your nutritional needs. Use your waiter or waitress as a resource and ask questions about what’s in the food and how it’s cooked.

4. “Cheat” Now and Then

Once a month, have a meal where you eat whatever you want. You’ll be surprised though. After weeks of healthy eating, what constitutes a “cheat” meal will change.

Do these four things and you’ll never get bored.


Our Hunter-Gatherer Past

July 31, 2010

The last of the hunter-gatherers to live in the area we now know as the United States of America were likely these fellows you see in this painting. They are now confined to the crappiest bits of real estate in Canada and the US where they eat the standard American diet of refined carbohydrates, dairy, and processed meats. And like most Americans they are amazingly unhealthy. In fact, Native Americans report the worst health across the board in all the key Syndrome X categories–heart disease, high blood pressure, obesity, diabetes, etc.

When I think of Native Americans, it always makes me sad. My father worked as a physician for the Indian Health Service in the 1970s and 80s and has told me about the many health issues that plague this population of people. And their health troubles are caused by one simple fact: For one reason or another, they have been separated from the lifestyle that they originally led that kept them vibrant and fit.

This is precisely what has happened to all of us. I was reminded of this when a Facebook friend asked me what I meant when I said I was stocking my kitchen with “hunter-gatherer-friendly” food for my upcoming Fitness Challenge. I realized that I had never really explained the concept of eating like a hunter-gatherer. The last 10 pounds that I have lost (three of which I gained back due to my recent relapse) I dropped with the help of a book called The Paleo Diet by Loren Cordain, Ph.D. I will now explain in detail the principles of the paleolithic diet (sometimes referred to as the Stone Age diet).

So what really happened to our diet? The “Agricultural Revolution” happened. Up until about 500 generations ago, cereals, dairy products, salted food, legumes, domesticated meats, and refined sugars were not part of our diet. From about 2.5 million years ago until about 10,000 B.C. our ancestors lived the lives of hunter-gathers, feasting on a diet comprised primarily of lean meats, with some vegetables, nuts, seeds and fruits that grew wild. According to Dr. Cordain the idea that we were meant to be vegetarians “runs contrary to every shred of evolutionary evidence from the fossil and anthropological record.” Our nearest animal relative in the chimpanzee. They are mostly vegetarians with large active guts they need to process that type of food. But somewhere along the way our family tree forked and humans traded in our large veggie stomachs…for bigger brains. Our stomachs are currently 40% smaller than the stomach of a chimp, but our brains are three times bigger. Lean meat is brain food. We were able to make tools that allowed us to both hunt and cut up the carcasses of animals. Scientists have found cut marks on the bones of fossilized animals and pieces of the tools themselves. Apparently in the beginning we used to eat only what was left over after larger predators had made the initial kill–our tools allowed us to crack open the bones and eat the bone marrow or brains of the animals. Marrow was a great source of energy and the animal brains we ate contained a large amount of something called DHA–an omega 3 fatty acid. Remember those? That stuff all the nutritionists have been telling you in so good for you? DHA as it turns out, is responsible for the building our our brain tissue–it is what made us the men and women we are today. In fact, Paleolithic people living in England 12,000 years ago ate diets that were almost identical to carnivores like wolves and bears. (Check out this funny video from my pal, Primal Toad.)

But we couldn’t eat just meat. Doing so would be toxic to us. We needed to eat animal fat and some plants along with it. Large animals contain more fat and less protein than smaller animals. If you ate smaller animals exclusively, you would have too much protein, but if you ate larger animals, the balance of nutrients would be okay. The animal fat protects you from the protein toxicity. This is why it was important back in the day to risk your Paleolithic ass to kill a deer instead of settling for rabbit day in and day out. The calorie output from killing the larger animal had to be less than the calories you would get from eating it. This is also why we are genetically programmed to clean our plates…you never knew when you were going to have to opportunity for venison again. By following the principles of the Paleo Diet, you are protected from protein toxicity through unlimited access to fruits and vegetables. As long as you indulge abundantly in fruits and non-starchy veggies, as much as 55% of your daily calories can come from protein and you’ll be just fine.

The downside of our society’s “development” through agriculture is that this development introduced foods that are toxic to our still very Paleolithic systems–cereals, dairy products, fatty meats, salted foods, and refined sugars and oils. DNA evidence shows that the human genome has changed less than 0.02% in 40,000 years. We may look like 21st Century hipsters on the outside, but on the inside we are still very Paleolithic.

Since this style of eating proved to be so effective for me, I have decided to go back to it in earnest. I am not a gal who enjoys counting calories and I have noticed that when I eat this way, I can eat more liberally in volume and still see very fast, specific results: High energy, great skin, and a rapid loss of weight that makes it appear as though the fat is melting off of my body. The key to this way of eating is that you want to avoid anything that you do not find on the perimeter of the grocery store. Have you ever noticed that all the processed, unhealthy food in the grocery store is in the middle? It’s full of preservatives, so it can sit on shelves for weeks or months without spoiling. No refrigeration required. You want to stick to the produce and meat sections. Remember, all the fruits and non-starchy veggies you can eat (unlike other low carb plans), and pretty much any kind meat you want that isn’t processed or really fatty–no lunch meat, bacon, or sausage…no hot dogs, or ribs. That leaves lean pork chops, turkey bacon, any steak cut except for T-bone, organ meats, most fish and shellfish, and any lean game meat (deer or elk, that sort of thing). You hunters should love this! Avoid dairy. If you absolutely NEED something to make your fruit smoothies with besides water, use unsweetened almond milk, which is available at most grocery stores. Make sure your protein powder uses whey protein rather than soy and contains no sugar. Coffee and tea is alright, just no lattes. For a sugar substitute in my tea, I use Truvia, which is made from the stevia plant. Agave syrup is an appropriate sugar substitute for baking. Exchange almond flour for wheat flour.  For cooking and salads, use the following oils: flaxseed, canola, walnut, or olive. Avoid salt if you can. If you are trying to lose weight, eat nuts in only small amounts–less than 4 ounces per day. Walnuts are best. Remember to avoid peanuts–they are actually a legume and not a nut. Legumes are not allowed. That means no soy milk folks. But if you are not eating cereal, there is really no need for any kind of milk, is there? I usually only want milk, when I eat starchy carbs.

The plan does allow you a few “open meals” in the beginning, easing you into this way of eating. But, I am a “cold turkey” kind of gal. I am highly addicted to carbohydrates and if I have even a small amount one part of the day (especially in the morning), I am going to want them ALL DAY. I recommend you purchase the book for the details on how to do the open meals.

So that’s the gist of it! I plan to get serious over the next three months to see if I can be at optimum health by October 29th, which is my 33rd birthday. I have been drifting between 192 and 194 pounds lately depending on how much water I am retaining. My size 14 clothes fit but they are very loose thanks to Turbo Fire. I am hoping to get down to a size 8 by my birthday. We’ll see.

As a birthday present to myself, I may complete a round of P90X….